That Love Thingy

I just had to stop what i was doing. Though I was happily getting started with working on our new topic for our department website, I suddenly felt a tug to stop and update my blog on something about, of all things, my lovelife. Didn't think i'd be writing anything about that here so soon. Well, anyway, the lyrics of Coco Lee's song suddendly came to mind and i felt i just had to post it here. Maybe for me to remember the message of the song before i get into another relationship. I don't know.

I don't know if am about to get into one. Most of the time I am confused with what's happening between me and one person. No doubt some feelings are already involved -- mine, at least -- that's why it's difficult for me to discern what's happening. Anyway, here's the song:

My heart says we've got something real

Can I trust the way I feel

'Cause my heart's been fooled before

Am I just seeing what I want to see

Or is it true, could you really be

(chorus)

Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soul

I need to know, before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

Through all my ups and downs

Please tell me now, before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return

So afraid of getting burned

But I want to take a chance

Please give me a reason to believe

Say, that you're the one

That you'll always be

(repeat chorus)

It's been so hard for me

To give m heart away

But I would give my everything

Just to have you say

(repeat chorus)

This song is just so apt for me. It's ironic though, how i sang this at a party where my ex also was, because it was his birthday celebration, which was right before he started to court me. That time, I didn't know how apt it was as a message for him.

Now, am finding it to be a song for yet another person. Fortunately, however, I can still say that am not yet at 'the point of no return', there's still a chance for me to come out unscathed. But i hope should the opportunity arise, i would be able to convey this message to him. I should learn from the past right? i definietly don't want to set myself up for another heartbreak.

For someonne else however, i find myself writing this little poem:

I THINK I'VE MET MY IDEAL MAN

NOW, WILL I END UP WITH HIM?

NOT MINE BUT GOD'S WILL BE DONE.