Wednesday, May 10, 2006

That Love Thingy

I just had to stop what i was doing. Though I was happily getting started with working on our new topic for our department website, I suddenly felt a tug to stop and update my blog on something about, of all things, my lovelife. Didn't think i'd be writing anything about that here so soon. Well, anyway, the lyrics of Coco Lee's song suddendly came to mind and i felt i just had to post it here. Maybe for me to remember the message of the song before i get into another relationship. I don't know.

I don't know if am about to get into one. Most of the time I am confused with what's happening between me and one person. No doubt some feelings are already involved -- mine, at least -- that's why it's difficult for me to discern what's happening. Anyway, here's the song:

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love
I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Please give me a reason to believe
Say, that you're the one
That you'll always be
(repeat chorus)
It's been so hard for me
To give m heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to have you say
(repeat chorus)
This song is just so apt for me. It's ironic though, how i sang this at a party where my ex also was, because it was his birthday celebration, which was right before he started to court me. That time, I didn't know how apt it was as a message for him.
Now, am finding it to be a song for yet another person. Fortunately, however, I can still say that am not yet at 'the point of no return', there's still a chance for me to come out unscathed. But i hope should the opportunity arise, i would be able to convey this message to him. I should learn from the past right? i definietly don't want to set myself up for another heartbreak.

For someonne else however, i find myself writing this little poem: