102006

It's been quite a while since i've played around with paint. i like this output. today has been a pretty uneventful day for me activity-wise. Internally, however, there were three things that bothered me emotionally this morning... but as the day progressed and as i went through different blog entires and email stories, all i got is a reaffirmation of how wonderful God works in our lives.

No matter how difficult things get, no matter how confused we get with the things that are happening to us, all we need to do is put our full trust in God and stay faithful... He has a bigger plan and He knows what's best for us.

I truly believe that He won't give us things we cannot handle and most especially that in anything, He will never leave us. It's just something we always need to keep in mind.

In spite of all the challenges, the problems, the uncertainties and insecurities, i am thankful for what i have and who i have in my life. I still am truly blessed.

Just a thought

... there's a picture in my mind that i wish i could capture and print out... that time in the mall where we just crossed paths and casually greeted each other; he, with calling out my name & i, with an acknowledging nod. Who would've known that that would be the prelude to another unexpected meeting? The next one being the time to share a service, which eventually was the beginning of a beautiful, beautiful relationship...*

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it's my niece's 5th birthday today... such a cutesy wootsie!

Just to share a story about her…so cute!

On an oral test the teacher shows Ashley as set of pictures which included the following: a cap, coins & a bike. She asks Ashley the question, ‘Ashley, if you’re going to the store what will you bring?’… Disregarding the pictures, she answers, ‘Daddy!’….Hahaha. My sister explains to the teacher that it’s because Ashley usually goes with her dad to the store. So the Teacher rephrases the question and asks Ashley to choose an answer from the pictures shown to her. This time, Ashley answers, ‘Bike’… Because her dad would usually take her to the store on a bike!....HaHaHa!

with little brother , Josh

samahan ko na rin ng pics ni josh. i think this was taken when he was newly born... ilang days palang ba siya dito? aren't babies and little kiddies just so cute?

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This is one momentous day. It’s twice happy and singularly tragic, if you can say that.

Happiness first!Happiness, because today marks the second month that JB and I are together. It’s a happiness I can’t say I’ve had in my past relationships.

Due to unavoidable circumstances, however Gel and I were not able to even see each other that day lest really celebrate our 2nd month of togetherness until the next day.Yes, we call each other Gel, short for angel-- hence my allustion to an angel in my previous post.

(pic was taken when we celebrated our 1st month)

But we were still happy (definitely!) with the fact that we’re still together, on this second month – though not physically, but together as a couple. It’s amazing how we understand each other. Sure sometimes a tinge of paranoia still creeps in that we worry about each other an miss each other a bit too much if we’re out of touch for a certain length of time.

But deep inside, we understand each other. We understand where we are in each others lives. We know what aspects of our lives are important to us as individuals and we know how much we love and value each other. Regardless of time or space. That's what's important. Together with love the trust & respect is really there.

I haven’t really talked about my angel in detail here, but right now, all I can say is that what he is to me is that he is truly Heaven sent ---literally! It’s just amazing how we were brought into each other’s lives and how it seems that we do fit albeit perfectly. it's like finding the right person at the right time, and we both happened to be in the right place too (all while doing our service). Never thought it could actually happen.

But I guess it won’t seem like such an impossibility really, especially when I think about how we really put God in the center of our relationship since the beginning (as in since courtship). It helps that before we really got together we were also both in love already, in love with God.

In two months, we've been through quite a lot, i guess. Mostly on how we are able to cope with whatever we're going through and being each other's support and strength. Though we haven't had any major problems yet, we do have our struggles. So we always pray for God's presence in our relationship. And we know that we'll say firm and strong as long as we have each other & God with us. With God, nothing is impossible! I really feel blessed to be with my Gel. In the SFC community, we call our boyfriends/girlfirends our "GG's" meaning God's Gift & JB truly lives up to the definition for me.

Anyways, talking about Gel deserves a devoted entry. Being part of a trio topic just won’t do him any justice. So, i'll write more about him soon. (With the rate i go with writing entries here though, i don't know how soon that
would be :P)

The other event for this day involves another angel. This time a little baby angel boy. This morning at 2am, Ashton James T. Hilado was born. The first Hilado in the line of pamangkins (in the 1st degree). He’s such a cute little baby boy that has the eyes, nose, lips and chin of his mother and the eyes, eyebrows and forehead of his father. No, he doesn’t have four eyes, it’s just that we can’t really tell if he’s got his mom’s or his dad’s eyes. Just check out the picture of one of the most adorable babies I’ve seen these days. Eat your hear out Suri (suri nga ba un? Anak nila Tom & Kate…okay, cute little girl un J) Malay natin Ashton & Suri might meet up sometime when they’re older and end up together. Would have to think though if
that’d really be something we’d like to happen. Hehe…

Such a nice name, Ashton. But with the typhoon that raged in Metro Manila this day the third topic) we’ve thought of giving Ashton a not so handsome nickname like Enyong or Menyong! Until my mom figured a more sossy sounding name …. Miles! Haha, dunno if that’d stick though. (two trees in front of our house were uprooted!)

Good think the office declared that there won’t be work today. Though I got to the office before 8am, I rushed home once there was confirmation of it being a non-working stormy holiday. I rushed home, then we went to the Hospital to visit our new baby boy. My mom & I went to the hospital together with Ashton’s maternal Lolo. At the hospital, we spent the afternoon with my brother Raffy (The New Daddy), Tracy (Ashton’s mommy) who was resting after a tiring birthing, and Tracy’s sisters (Nurse Mia & Cheery Tin2).

From Tracy’s story it was a tiring birthing indeed. But more than that, it was inspiring. Here we have a young mother experiencing, feeling every pain and effort to bring out her baby into this world. The challenge was such that at the time of her pregnancy she had a delicate condition where parts of her body were swollen. The name of the condition escapes me now. And there was a big probability of her needing a caesarian delivery since. Amazingly, out of sheer desire to deliver the baby normally and with the doctor’s confidence, Tracy was able to endure 2 hours of heaving (with the help of 2 nurses pushing the baby out of her tummy) and delivered Ashton without any need for a caesarean section.

That she did against all odds, even if her blood pressure was rising and she was
very tired and in pain. She was only given a ‘twilight’ anesthesia. Imagine giving birth half asleep! Gosh, sometimes it’s even hard to get dressed half asleep, manganak pa kaya! But she did it. Once Ashton was out, all Tracy had to hear was the voice of her little boy’s newborn cry for her to instantly fall asleep seconds after.

This day was a momentous ay. Despite the heavy winds and rains and the tragedy that it has caused, it’s not enough to dampen the day and keep us from continuing to celebrate Life & Love.

The Invitation & The Longing

Am reposting this from my multiply site. Why? because it seems that my invitee has come and i've found the one i've been longing for... feel blessed to have met my angel...


Wana share these exerpts which i just love right now... it's from the book The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, given to me by dear planning sister & friend Bia! :p . The cover of the book goes:

it doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
i want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
it doesn't interest me how old you are.
i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for Love, for your Dream,
for the Adventure of being alive....

following however, pretty much captured my sentiments, for who? well, i don't know yet... (now i know who it's for ^_^)

i want to be courted by truth.

let the stories that are telling our lives spin out in long multicolored threads.

don't tell me too much, too soon.

don't hide anything.

tell the tales of your heart,

offer them like perfect pearls coming up from the depths of the sea to be strung together,

each gently clicking against theother,

luminous and iridescent as they roll out of the moistness.

ten years from now i want to hear a story of your childhood i have never heard before

and know the delight and ongoing awe of seeing each other for the first time,

again & again.

give me each picture slowly,

so i can sit with it and find you, and the glimpses of me,

and the foreshadows of us there in the details.

i want to talk in seamless conversation all night long

and find ourselves able to hold the silence together for days,

our intimacy sharpened by shared solitude...

That Love Thingy

I just had to stop what i was doing. Though I was happily getting started with working on our new topic for our department website, I suddenly felt a tug to stop and update my blog on something about, of all things, my lovelife. Didn't think i'd be writing anything about that here so soon. Well, anyway, the lyrics of Coco Lee's song suddendly came to mind and i felt i just had to post it here. Maybe for me to remember the message of the song before i get into another relationship. I don't know.

I don't know if am about to get into one. Most of the time I am confused with what's happening between me and one person. No doubt some feelings are already involved -- mine, at least -- that's why it's difficult for me to discern what's happening. Anyway, here's the song:

My heart says we've got something real

Can I trust the way I feel

'Cause my heart's been fooled before

Am I just seeing what I want to see

Or is it true, could you really be

(chorus)

Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soul

I need to know, before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

Through all my ups and downs

Please tell me now, before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return

So afraid of getting burned

But I want to take a chance

Please give me a reason to believe

Say, that you're the one

That you'll always be

(repeat chorus)

It's been so hard for me

To give m heart away

But I would give my everything

Just to have you say

(repeat chorus)

This song is just so apt for me. It's ironic though, how i sang this at a party where my ex also was, because it was his birthday celebration, which was right before he started to court me. That time, I didn't know how apt it was as a message for him.

Now, am finding it to be a song for yet another person. Fortunately, however, I can still say that am not yet at 'the point of no return', there's still a chance for me to come out unscathed. But i hope should the opportunity arise, i would be able to convey this message to him. I should learn from the past right? i definietly don't want to set myself up for another heartbreak.

For someonne else however, i find myself writing this little poem:

I THINK I'VE MET MY IDEAL MAN

NOW, WILL I END UP WITH HIM?

NOT MINE BUT GOD'S WILL BE DONE.

Things Are Looking Up!

This is such an apt follow up to my last post. I know there was a tinge of uncertainty at the end of my previous post. Our analysis of the workings of our minds as discovered from the way we come up with drawings still proves true.

Just came out of a meeting with my boss this morning and I was so happy with the outcome. I've been working for almost 4 years in market research. But I'm a newbie in advertising so i somehow need to start again. Honestly, am not particular about titles except that you should of course be acknowledged for what you've earned. I don't mind starting over. Well, i thought I didn't. Until I felt that I was waiting too long for something to happen. I was looking for some excitement, but I can't seem to find it, or even have a glimpse of it.

I was wondering until when will i be 'newbie'. I didn't know if there were any plans for me, or what kind of advancement was in store. At first, I was patient, until I was getting restless.

Until this morning. I saw an end to an otherwise mundane existence. A change at least. I've found the excitement. I now have a goal. A next level to look forward to. Mas exciting na buhay ko... Salamat!

Word Clouds...

got this from multiplymate teachersheryl's site... it's called a word cloud which you can get through http://www.snapshirts.com/custom.php

i've yet to dissect what my word clouds are all about, but i came up with two word clouds, one for each blogsite that i have.

the first one i got refers to the words that are randomly found in this particular blogsite. My word cloud for nuesummermoon is :



i have another blogsite however, which i think should be one i should already delete and forget about. it's the prelude to this nuesummermoon site. it's the original sweetsummermoongirl's site, which is now only a pastsummermoon... anyway, the theme's in that site encroaches the sadder part of my life, where my angsts and heartaches are locked in... My pastsummermoon word cloud came out like this:



what does it say?

Effort for Abstract

This post is way overdue. I think these works were accomplished last year by me and my officemate toni. i shared with them my discovery about working with MS Paint which Toni also tried her hand on.

family picnic by mitzi











mood series by toni

It was amazing how these discoveries on how we were able to create our 'works of art' revealed something about ourselves. You see, as much as they admired the way i was able to 'paint' a portaits of people, like this family, using a difficult medium such as MS Paint, I've also wanted to be able to come up with abstract art as one of my works using this software.

However, as attempted to create an abstract figure, much to my dismay, I only found myself coming up with patterns much like a wallpaper or textile design. While Toni's work came effortlessly and enjoyably for her, i could not seem to make one of my own.
It's interesting how we realized what could be behind the reasons for our creating such works.

As i talked to Toni. I discovered, that she generally does not find it difficult to go with the flow and make something up wiht the things she is given with without any specific goal or objective in mind. Somehow, she eventually finds it along the way.

I've always thought of myself to be the same way. But with these works, and with the help of Toni, i realized that it's actually quite hard for me to do something or go forward if i do not have a visual of any objective in mind. What motivates me is the end objective I see for whatever it is that i do.

I don't know how Toni sees this realization about her more 'abstract' predisposition has manifested in her life. But i seem to have understood myself more with the realization about my 'profiler/realistic' tencencies.

As i work now. I somehow find, that i will find more fulfillment with doing something where i will have a concrete output that will directly affect something. An end to a process. It seems that work that involves tracking and constant updates do not fit me very well, because these are types of work where there isn't a concrete end in sight.

I've also realized that setting an objective for myself also makes it easier for me to get over and move on with things. The knowledge that there's an end to whatever pain helps.
In my life in general, I'm still finding myself quite lost with regard to what my real purpose in life is. I believe I have discerned that I am for the married life. However, as i work towards that, there is still an uneasiness about me as i am not yet seeing myself fulfilling it anytime soon.

At this point, finding him (i may have found him already) and having him here with me already will really do a lot in setting the direction of my life. The ;'what' is important, but even more important to me it seems, is the 'with whom'.

1st Climb!

Went to the UP Fair last Feb. It's been a long time since my friends & I have gone to UP. It was such a 'fair-y' experience for me. I got to try wall climbing for the first time. Ever since i've wanted to try it out, and now i have.



Preparing to climb! Steady.... Oops! di ko na ata kaya
Slipping...


Getting the hang of it! Finally, that's me at the top!

I honestly didn't think i'd make it to the top. But i did! it was really tiring. It was a Climb one wall for P20, Climb the next wall for free. My friends and I even joked that like with strict eat-all-u-can buffets, it probably also meant that you'd have to pay extra if you wouldn't be able to finish climbing the other wall. Haha. Apparently they had a different promo. If you're able to sucessfully climb, you get a free wall to climb.

On the first try, I couldn't even get past half the wall. It was just too tiring! I so realized just how un-fit i was. I watched the other girls before me climb like effortly up the walls. I couldn't help but feel bad about the state of my fitness. Forunately the people assisting the climbers were very encouraging. One of them said all i needed was to take a bit of a rest, I still had a free wall to use to try climbing again. But I was like, 'nooo, it's impossible for me to actually climb that thing. barely halfway up, my legs and arms were already shaking, and I'm not even that heavy'... i was panting like crazy.

But the man insisted, so i hung around a while, still with my gear on, panting and watching. On my second try, i got more tips on how to rest on the way up. how to keep my balance while resting and how to really use my legs to push myself and not my arms to pull my body up.

It took some time, but as proof in my picutres, I made it to the top. Thanks to my friendies, cheering me on down below and taking my picture. Of course, I insisted that they take my pic..hehehe

It was such a fun fair experience for me. Because the moment I left the wall climbing booth we proceeded to a CHIKKA booth nearby and i got a free shirt. Because I had more than 50 contacts in my chikka account. I think it reached around 70+... haven't been using it lately though. Now, ain't going to a fair complete unless you get some kind of freebie?

Another element in the fair which we looked for was the fortune telling booth. That's because we went to one the last time we went to a UP fair. For fun's sake. I don't remember anymore what the fortune told to me was at that time. Anyway, the funny part was, we mistook a group of students huddled in front of a tent as people managing a fortune telling booth. Just because we saw a bunch of playing cards scattered in their midst. As in binalikan pa namin sila when we thought of having our fortunes read... It was really hilarious how my friend asked if they can do fortune telling only to be given an blank expression. After that, it looked as if any group, crouched on the grass looked like they can tell your fortune...

It was also great listening to the bands. There I discovered that the lead vocalist of Itchyworms was a very funny character. was fun watching them. The one of the reasons why we chose to go on the night we went to the fair was because Bamboo was playing. However, being the best, which was saved for last, it was getting too late and we couldn't wait for him to come out anymore. Still had work the next day.

So we went on our way home.

Relationships

I've got sad news. It's been confirmed that one of my favorite couples have broken up. I'm not one to say that I know them so well, haven't even seen them in person-- together at least. However, for some reason, they are the sort of 'stranger-friends' who are quite special to me. I've known them these past couple of years and theirs was a relationship that i admired. From my standpoint at least, since i don't know everything that goes on between them. Little did i know that they've been having problems big enought to actually lead to such severance of ties.

For some reason, this has affirmed my fears about the fact that sometimes, you really don't know whom to entrust your heart to. How will you know? At this stage, it gets more difficult, because once you entrust your heart, it's pretty much like entrusting your whole life already. It's a scary reality. While others are quite lucky to easily find their true partners, it can be a scary, tiring and risky process for some of us.

Fortunately, inspite of having my fears fullfilled a number of times which led me to continue to be 'afraid', I don't think I've been really left jaded by it all. I'm as cautious as ever, but I do still believe in giving myself, and others, a chance. I can just really leave the rest in God's hands.

This morning, it's amazing what I encountered as I was reading one of my sources of spiritual nourishment (Embraced by Bo Sanchez). Because it affirmed my natural tendency to still be open to new relationships (okay, i'm pertaining to romantic relationships, because I really don't have much problems with friendly ones).

Anyway, this particular topic struck me. It's entitled: THE SIN OF SELF PROTECTION with a verse from Genesis 2:18 which states "it is not good for man to be alone" .

Let me just share the part for meditation. It says:

'Some hide, distance and move away from most relationships. They do so because they want to protect themselves from more pain. But when they barricade themselves, they will never experience total trust and total deseration for the love of God. They need ti to leard how to rely on the Divine love to heal their future wounds.

'By throwing themselves into relationships, by being honest and vulnerable, by giving their real selves to another -- they are also trusting that God will love them perfectly in the midst of a sea of imperfect human love, to satisfy them in a way no one else can.'

Although it may take time, I hope my friend will also not be too jaded by what has happened.

Daddy's Speech

I loved my dad's speech during my sister's wedding last November 2005. First, he pointed out how the day rekindled past emotions on when he was walking down the same aisle to get married with my mom walking alongside him as his, then, bride to be.

You see, my sister was married on the 30 years and 5 days after my parents got married, in the same church at that!

I was too busy and a quite flustered attending to my duties as maid of honor -- assisting my sister with her gown during & after the ceremony, taking note of all my sister's instructions for the reception, etc.--- that I hadn't realized the additional significance of that date and place to my parents.

What's beautiful was what he said about how he remembered that 3o years before, walking down that same aisle, he felt that freedom and restriction at the same time because of of his decision to finally get married to my mother. I don't recall his exact words, but it was something like feeling the freedom of making such a big and valuable decision in his life choosing to spend the rest of his life with one person (which eventually led to having 7 more people in his life :D) at the same time, of course, being well aware of the restricions that come with the conviction of really standing by his decision.

...Which leads me to his other beautiful point that came out more as a piece of advice to the newlyweds and anyone else planning on doing the proverbial marital jump.

He shared his theory or 'suspicion' as to why a lot of marriages do not last. The idea he had lie precisely on the principle of making such a big decisions and standing by it. He surmised, that maybe somehow, those couples did not take marriage and their vows seriously. They did not quite realize before they entered into marriage that it is indeed something where you're not supposed to have the option to just up an leave when things get difficult or when you suddenly change your mind.

He definitely knows what he's talking about. Because I'm sure my parents' relationshiop is not all rosy and blissful. They have their share of differences and problems. But they've endured. They chose to be together and love each other, no matter what. I know in spite of everything, they're still being together, is not so just for the sake of the bond of their marriage. But because they still choose to be together and love each other because it is their promise to each other.

I so agree that marriage is something not to be entered into lightly. That it is a decision one should know and consider as something one can never back out of once it's made. Just on that idea, I do hope to find a man like my dad. Someone who values marriage the same way my dad does.

On that note, I'd like to end this entry with something i keep getting from forwarded emails that I do believe in. It goes....

Falling in love is not by choice but by chance;

Staying in love is not by chance but through work;

Falling out of love is not by chance, but by choice.

lll

2006 New Year's Resolution

2006 has finally arrived. And so, it is yet again time to come up with my New Year's resolutions in hopes of coming out a better individual by the end of the year. I honestly do not remember what my resolutions were for 2005. I seem to have lost track of them sometime within the year, but I have a strong feeling they're not so different from my current resolutions.

I do remember that one of my goals last year was to learn how to drive. Never got around to doing that though. I still only know how to drive up to second gear, doing only right turns, thanks to my dear friend who sometimes, probably in moments of insanity, takes the chance of teaching us how to drive using his dear car.

Though I hope I can somehow squeeze it in as one of my must do's this year, it's not really much of a priority. To begin with, we don't have a car! so I really won't have anything to drive. No use learning if I an't got anything to practice with or eventually use yet. Well, maybe I just need to know if I am capable of learning it. haha!

Much as my mom assured me that there's no need to worry about hitting anything or anyone while driving because you'll find that the car would pretty much be like an extension of your body, I am actually quite apprehensive about how I would be as a driver. Along with having a faulty foot (see 'Mitzi-isms' below) I just keep bumping into walls, doors and fences and stuff, while walking! WHILE WALKING!!! What more if my body's connected to a ton of metal? (does a car weigh a ton, by the way?).

Well, ANYWAY, that was a long enough intro for and far enough segue from this entry's topic. I think I just need to record my resolutions for 2006. So I'll have something to get back to once in a while to check if i'm keeping them.

As a chatmate of mine pointed out to me, my resolutions basically revolve around wealth, health, and spirituality. Hopefully, it's for the improvement of my life experience in general (but then again, isn't that what it's supposed to be?). Haba nanaman ng isa pang intro! Without further ado, my resolutions are:

…to make it a point to really save! Save! Save! (maybe i'll set a target on how much savings i

should have by the end of the year)
…to make it a point to do my daily crunches…good luck talaga!
…to make it a point to really set time for my prayer time… miss ko na Siya kausap actually…
…to make it a point to learn how to cook…at least have a specialty by the end of the year…

…to make it a point to learn how to sew, as in actual clothes from scratch...

It goes without saying that I'll try to be a better person (in so many was) and really apply the things I've learned from people I meet and experiences I've had.

Cheers to 2006!

"Mitzi-isms"

i love the beach but haven't been there for sooo long....

i love to eat!!! :) maya't maya gusto ko sana kumakain ako... kahit kukutkutin...

always and forever will be a hopeless (but practical!) romantic......

pnapapagkamalan mataray...aminadong moody pero mabait naman...minsan o madalas, mahiyain lang...

i have TERRIBLE sense of direction! map please!!!

i hate waiting...would appreciate it if people come on time...i really hate waiting, especially if i don't have anything to do while waiting!!!!!

i have a faulty foot!...

i have the uncanny ability to love something or someone i particularly dislike!!!!...

a closet drama queen...if not in person, on paper.... cheers to the lights!

am basically not easily impressed but easy to please...tolerant about a lot of things happening to me and around me, but i try to rationalize these things as i do so...

nostalgic and sentimental... resminiscing about happy times...

simple lang, actually...

Got this from http://web.tickle.com/invite?test=1108&type=t

It says my color is Green, the color of growth and vigor.

Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

how nice :p

~Love and Time~

… Love began to cry.

Then, she heard a voice say, “Come, Love, I will take you with me.” It was an

elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name.
When they arrived on land, the elder went on his way.

Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and

asked, “Who was it that helped me?”. “It was Time”, Knowledge answered.
“But why did Time help me when no one else would?” Love asked.

Knowledge smiled and, with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered,

“Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is.”

This is only a portion of the story about Love and Time, which along with all other emotions, were trying to escape the sinking island they were in. It's a good personification of the emotions to understand Love better... Is it really only Time that is capable of understanding how great Love is?...

Yes, in a sense that it is the only witness to the things that Love can do...because only through Time will we see each other's real character and flaws, and only in Time will we see the sacrifices and care that we do for each other... Love will only be given an chance to bloom and grow, to transform and mature into something real and true if it is given enough Time...

In the beginning of it all, however, i believe only a little Time is needed for one to know if Love would indeed grow ... sometimes all it takes is an instant...*U*

10 Questions

Pick a band/artist/album + Answer using only titles of their songs
I choose MYMP

+ Are you male or female: 'Would you be my Girlfriend?'

+ Describe yourself: Get me (You know that I will always be just fine I'm okay, I'm alright, I am superb And everything that I can think of)... 'coz am just okay right now... neither here nor there, but okay... getting there :p

+ How do some people feel about you: Tell me where it hurts ... wahahaha! i got stumped on this one... can't find a song...

+ How do you feel about yourself: True Colors ...somethimes there are just some things that leaves me disillusioned, but fortunately, as of now, i don't think i can really be jaded... would just have to continue being myself and keep believeing in what i believe in... keep showing my true colors...

+ Describe your ex: Paalam na (di lang laan sa isa't isa) ... need i say more?

+ Describe your views on your significant other or crush: Rush (And then that's when I met you Faith could have brought me to you I know you're my answered pray'r ‘cause I see in you Eyes that could see through me Warmth that takes away my plea Where my heart is felt as it changes speed I know when it's time we allow love to take its seat) ... whoever you are....(^._,*)

+ Describe what you want: Awit ng Saya tulay ng Maykapal inuugugnay ang ating pagmamahalan. gawa ng lakas na di guguho, sa minsang pagsubok na napagdadaanan ng buhay. hayaan mo akong umawit, ako lamang, ay nagpapasalamat) ... as i said, "i'm okay, am alright, i am supeb", but if there's anything else i'd so want is to be thankful for something like this... ung hindi na talaga guguho...God-willing :D

+ Describe how you live: Ginoo, Walay Sukod ... i have no idea what it literally means, but it's a song of praise, and that's how i want to live my life praising God always :)

+ Describe how you love: Whenever, Wherever, Whatever (Lead me on, boy, if you must...take my heart and my love, take of me all that you want. And if there's anything that you need, i'll give you my breath, that i breath. If ever you yearn for the love in me....wherever, whenever, whatever, baby) ... to the right one, by all means, whenever, wherever, whatever!!!!

+ Share a few words of wisdom: JAM (Set your spirits free) ... that's it, just set your spirit free!